Or Why I Need To Get Away From the HellHole Town
Published on March 1, 2005 By NotSoSmellySarah In Misc
I want to shake the dust off of my feet, and make something of myself. I want bright lights, and big cities.But how can i ever get that if i can barely function in this stupid school in this crappy little town. Sigh. Maybe i can function cuz i desire bigger and greater things. I worry myself sick because i just want so badly. I feel like my charchter in Calamity last year. Or belle. I guess thats why my favorite disney movie is beauty and the beast. I always felt like she did, "there must be more than this provincial life" Why can't i find it? Will i ever make it? Is it stupid for me to think that i could ever act my way out of amanda?
To make matters worse Josh is coming back. I don't want to see him, I want him to stay in Georgia and rot in it. His school does have an awesome drama department though. Gah it was amazing, I almost moved down there with him just to be apart of it. He has his art and i hate him for it. So talented, and in art its so easy to see...it'll take him wherever he pleases, it's not fair. And Brandon has his music. He's so good at trombone. But me..what about me? I want to act in front of thousands of people but how can i get there on what i have? I'm doing a monologue for the arts festival but i can't find which one. I was told to do one of the Vagina Monologues, but sadly there all about....well, vaginas and Mr. Saxton would pass out if i ever did one of them. Even though for some reason i think there very good monologues.
Well that's enough of that. I'm almost tempted to disable comments cuz i don't feel like listening to people. But oh well. Enough incoherent babbling for today.


Comments
on Mar 01, 2005
It's hard for you, I know that. The problem is, you're stuck in the here and now, and will be for another year. I used to hate this town, but I've learned that if you don't accept it or block it out, then you go insane. Just try to live and remember these words.

If this burden seems to much to bear,
Remember the end will justify,
the pain it took to get us there.

Peace,

Beebes
on Mar 01, 2005
Thanx for you encouragement alex.
on Mar 01, 2005
Heh...this town isn't the greatest place to build a legacy...but I suppose it's better than getting shot at all day like in Columbus or something...well, don't worry about it Sarah, if you work hard and are determined then you will be able to make your dreams come true.

~Zoo
on Mar 02, 2005
Ohh! My baby! I remember when we used to rant about this for hours! I know so so much how you feel. Alex is right, though, we only have the here and now, so make the best of this test and don't ask why. It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time. (From the wisdom of Green Day) I know this souds like I'm just throwing around obvious advice, but seriously, pray about it. I mean, God is the one who decides your future, so it's best to go to Him about how you're feeling and ask Him to show you the way or remove all feelings of discontentment from your heart so that you can live for Him.

Fear not, all shall be revealed.(Star wars comes through for me again!)

Your ever devoted friend,
~Kinjruh~
on Mar 02, 2005
Hey Sarah. You shouldn't get yourself down like that. Dreams are dreams because they're easy to reach. They're dreams because we want to reach them but a lot of work is going to have to come first. My dream has always been to play in a "big" symphony. That most likely won't happen but maybe now I can inspire others to do so. That works for me.

oh kendra, i may be wrong (though i don't think i am) but i don't think God chooses what happens to us. that's why we have free will, to decide for ourselves what will happen. he just knows what will happen.

Capt. ...