Published on December 3, 2007 By NotSoSmellySarah In Personal Relationships
Heres what I know about me
I'm lost in between words and worlds apart
from where I need to be
And I'm a silly hearted girl
And no one gives a damn
A flat fuck
Or ass of any kind
What I say
People listen when other peoples words float out of my mouth
and to their ears
When I'm on a stage
but everywhere else they put gags in my mouth

You'll create your own version of me
And with the help of blinders
Thats all you'll see
You'll think I'm fascinating
That I complete your everything
You'll wonder how you ever got on without me
Most people think
I'm the most strangely beautiful person they've ever seen
Or ugly as sin with postmarks from hell to prove it

unmovtivated and stubborn as hell
I call myself a progressive free thinking femminist
and you'll find everyway to see that I'm a hypocrite
because its easy to put your fingers down my throat
and much harder to listen for a change

I swear like a sailor
I drink like one too.
you'll need me
And I'll hate it

My pastor said
I have a spitfire problem
My vibrator said
I have seperation anxiety
My ex boyfriend said
I'm probably a lesbian
My best friend said
I understand everything

I hate to wear a bra
And I follow the latest trends
I rarely feel anything
At all.
Except when I cry on the floor
And can't get up

I'll live out my life
Through the versions of myself
People create of me.
I'll scream when I know
No one hears me
No one will really know
The things said here.

Comments
on Dec 03, 2007

I give a flat fuck...and more.

You and I need to hang out...perhaps my tranquil personality will calm you down a bit...either that or you can yell at me until you feel better...either way's fine with me.

~Zoo

on Dec 04, 2007
A slutty poem--sad, yet honest voice.
on Dec 04, 2007
I've read this poem four times now, and I still don't know how to respond to it.

It aches to read.

There's so much open honesty here, it makes me hurt.

For what it's worth -

Thank you for sharing.
on Dec 04, 2007
Thanks guys...

Shaun: i'm really not angry, just kind of hopelessly sad. I don't really know..


I'm just glad it moved someone....
on Dec 04, 2007

i'm really not angry, just kind of hopelessly sad. I don't really know..

Well, if it's cheering up you need then I'm the guy for the job.

~Zoo

on Dec 05, 2007
Oh, Sarah...
It is so painful.
I shed a few tears...
I know I'm not your best friend or anything like that, but I hear you. I'm listening.