A Bunch of Contradictions that become me
Wanting is aching,
Smiling; i'm faking,
Is this world,
Really mine for the taking?
Keeping; i'm losing,
Understanding becomes confusing,
Lost in this paradoxy,
I'm abusing,
Failing; but i'm trying,
Re-living; i'm dying,
Unable to stop,
Myself from crying,
Losing what i am finding,
Seeing that is blinding,
Trying to keep my mind from unwinding,
Freedom is caging,
Conformity; it is changing,
Watching my life,
As it's rearranging,
I'm just a saint that is sinning,
A loser that is winning,
Searching deperately,
For a new begining.