Okay, so i've been a little angry all day about a somewhat touchy subject, so i decided to write about it. but before i start i would like to say that I DO NOT THINK I AM FAT> if i so much as get one reply about "oh sarah, youre not fat, now i'm fat....blah blah blah" there shall be hell to pay!!!!!! Now that's said, i need to state my opinion on this matter. Most of you don't know me very well, sarandon obviously knowing me the best, but I will firstly admit that i do indeed have a problem with food. I always have, I AM NOT ANOREXIC!!!! just because i'm thin doesn't mean anything. well at least thats what i've been saying for the past four or five years of my life. It makes me angry that people put so much pressure on me to be a certain way. Like today at lunch, no offense to Zoo but i being treat like i dont eat or whatever, it makes me feel like that's the way i should be. I don't know when this began, but I've been having an aversion to food, it's hard for me to talk about, i almost posted an article similar to this one after the potato incident. I just want people to leave me alone about it. You guys don't know what it's like to be like... me i don't know. I'm struggling talking about this, the only one who knows any of this is brandon. It's almost like i had to write this so i could just deal with it, this is how i deal with everything anymore. Sometimes i wonder what it would be like to look in the mirror and like what i see. i cant say anymore.