Now i know why i never fitted in With you guys
Published on December 19, 2004 By NotSoSmellySarah In Misc
Reply By: carebear07 Posted: Saturday, September 04, 2004
It's kinda funny how people come to you with their problems with Brandon. lol. But hey, at least I haven't asked you what to do about him. You just kinda come upon me with your advice when I don't even ask for it. lol. But, hey, thanks anyways. Yeah, itsn't she nerve racking though? lol. Yeah, me and Sam can't stand her! I can almost say that I hate her, just because of all the crap and bs she's put me through. I think she's the main reason for my depressed moods lately. So, I take it she's not the only girl that calls you?? j/w. I don't know, one of these days i might strangel her or something. I dunno. lol

This is fucking lovely. I DON'T CARE HOW LONG AGO THIS WAS. i just discovered this article today. and i would just like you all to know that i'm just so happy that you all talked about me like this. I'm crying by the way because when i wrote controversy, controversy i had no clue that this article existed. well you know what, screw all of you. Alex, i'm sorry i bothered you but you were the only person that would listen to me. I don't have friends okay, alex, well at least i didn't back then. NONE of you know the hell that was going on my life at that point in time. I attempted suicide about a week after this happened. Luckily i'm still here. I can't believe this. there is so much to this story that none of you could ever possibly know unless brandon or i tell you. I now understand why brandon was afraid to tell me how he felt. i don't think i'll look at any of you guys the same ever again. Right now i keep telling myself it's in the past, but i'm shaking so hard i can barely type. How could you guys talk about me so harshly? What did i ever do to you guys? Alex, i thought of you as a dear friend, now i'm not even sure what to think. I understand that you feel differently now because of that mushy look in you eye everytime you look at me and brandon together. but i just can't get over this. I now know why i'm so different in you guys eyes. because i don't bs people. I want brandon, okay i'm leaving to call him.... sleep tight in your warm little beds....

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on Dec 20, 2004
Oh my! I even forgot this article was on here. Ok, yes i do admit that for sometime I was antsy about accepting you. Just because of all the things that I had heard going around. I didn't know what to believe. I'm really sorry though. But once I found out the truth I didn't think of you that way. I'm so sorry Sarah. I feel really bad. I'm sitting here crying. I don't know what to say to you except I'm sorry. I was really stupid to say those things. I don't even know why I did. But I think it's because I was going through a hard time with myself. But I'm so so so so so sorry! please forgive me, or I won't know what to do with myself. Like I said, I so totally forgot that was even on here. I was.....well...i don' know.....but I'm really sorry.

~carebear~
on Dec 20, 2004
Oh....another thing that poped into my mind. I think the reason why i talked about you this way is because I was recieving information that you were saying really mean things about me. I was afraid to talk to you about it, because I didn't know what you would do. I guess I should have done that in the first place. But like I said, I'm so totally sorry. I don't want you to look at me any differently. I regret what I've done. But, i'm not perfect. And just like you a whole bunch of things were going on with me at that time too. I'm sorry Sarah.....I LOVE YOU!!! And you do fit in!!!

~carebear~
on Dec 20, 2004
it's okay ash, i mean i understand. It was just so hard for me to think about how crappy life was back then, you know. i was just sifting back through everyone's old articles and it was like the I Hate Sarah support group or something. Its all good now, but last night i was just so upset thinking about it. i hate to think that my actions brought people pain, but it was hell then. people told us both a lot of crap and i'm glad we've moved on from that. you are a great friend now that all this is over. jeez it took us a long time. I LOVE YOU TOO!!!!!!
on Dec 21, 2004
Yeah I'm glad it's over and we're friends. You are a great friend Sarah, I don't know why it took me so long to realize it! *hits self on noggin* I'm glad you understand. I love you!

~carebear~
on Dec 21, 2004
*whew* That ended well.....I thought some scary shit was going to go down there for a second....thank God for understanding...

~Zoo
on Dec 21, 2004
lol, shaun, wasn't it though?