Give God Some Credit, Jeez
I was just thinking about life today. I have fallen into a trap where I let my life be consumed just like everyone else's by what people think or at least thought of me, and who's liking who and whatnot. There is so much more to life then fighting over boys, puhleez, it's not worth risking friendship over, *okay it was kinda of in my case because i wasn't really good friends with them* but i think me, ashley, and stacey are starting to figure this whole thing out. I have to stop letting myself be sucked into gossip and such, and start loving life again. There are so many things that we take for granted. I used to take the time i shared with my friends for granted but when one of my very best friends ( boyfriend at the time as well) moved far away i learned that one should truly cherish the time you get to spend with the people you are close too. I also took for granted just having friends for a while there i had about three really good trustworthy friends and about that to the second power in adversaries. But i had three really great friends who stuck by my side through it all. And looking back its much better to have three really true loving friends then to have a million who dont really like you. Back to my point, i encourage you to live life with passion, and zeal. Sarah DeBruin tells me that i glow, and i do feel radiant, because God has truly given me so much. I see so many steroetypical teenagers living blah lifestyles with no passion and no interest in anything other than the next episode of the Real World or whatever shows big right now, ( like i would know) Don't live a life of mediocrity. Embrace your difference. Stop caring what other people think of you. And don't say that you didn't care to begin with because you and i both know that's a lie. I did at one point in time and i brings me shame to think about it. Find passion for something in your life, you can have a zeal for anything, acting, writing, sports, music, even CHEESE for crying out loud. There are so many little things in life that bring me joy, everything from a beautifully sculpted sunset in maginificent hues of magenta, to hearing my favorite song on the radio. Stop and bask in the greatness of everything around you. Look at what God given you. I was reading carebear's latest article and it made me think. The problem is not having other people accept you, it's accepting yourself. Be happy with who you are, and if you don't like the way you're living fix it. Sound simple? It kind of is. I also don't think the problem is actually fixing one's faults, but its actually getting the courage to make the descion to fix the way you're living. I used to never even smile, and now i can't stop. Life truly is glorious, if you allow it to be.