The weirdest thing happened the other day, I was just talking to Brandon and listening to this cd and all of the sudden I had a revelation. I feel beautiful. I wanted to dance, and sing, smile, laugh and cry all at the same time. Sam said the same thing a while ago. But I've never felt beautiful in all my sixteen years. Like my walls came crumbling down. It was as if that person i've been harboring inside of me for so long burst out. I've wore a mask for the past three or four years, hiding who i really was, falling farther and farther away from God, and making myself miserable. Not now. I feel content. I want everyone to feel this way. Jinkies.
Well anyway on to my spazy day. I thought the Fat Tones were playing at a show today. But I was wrong...I didn't call rich like i should have cuz he's annoying anymore. Grrr. It made me mad and emo all at the same time. I even dragged Brandon along. Then in an attempt to make myself feel better about the whole thing, I let Brandon decide where to go afterwards. My bad. I'm sorry but I'm just not a nerd. Okay I don't have nerdy qualities so going to a place that's like Nerd Headquarters (no offense Brandon) is just not for me. No matter how hard you try, i doubt i'll ever be a nerd. I like Brandon being nerdy, but eh its just not cute or princess like to be nerdy for me. So no ska for me. Well not live ska anyway.
In other news, how do i de-ditzify myself? i don't know what's worse my ditziness or my spaziness. hmmmmmm...
I don't have anymore to say i'm sleepy.