I'm mad mainly at myself, but I decided to take it out on a bunch of people. Forgive me, I wrote you a letter Ash, about what i ment. I'm just so angry and i was upset because sam was upset. I don't have a reason to be mean, looking back i don't knkow what you were trying to do, but i lashed out at you. I guess I should tackle the problem but more calmly. I'm having insane mood swings by the way, I talked to alex about my anger problem and i'm trying to tackle it. Please pray. I think i've lost the little sanity i had. Someone please help me. I just feel like screaming at anyone sometimes, and its not fair. I'm burdening to many people.
I got angry at God, and its not even his fault. So i prayed for forgiveness and etc. and i'm just trying to let him control it, not me. I want to be as close to Him as i used to be. Ive fallen while the rest of my family got closer. Please help me. My mom thinks i'm depressed and i need help but i don't think so, i don't want to be dependant on some drug for the rest of my life. I feel fine when i'm around brandon. Which raises a good question, just how brandon do you make my problems disappear just by speaking?
I just want to feel better. I want to be happy, which don't get me wrong things overall make me very happy, but i just feel bad.
Okay that enough. I hope you understand.
All my love, (for now with my mood swing only God knows what tomorrow brings)
Sarah