With some things I do not believe in second chances.
Published on January 30, 2005 By NotSoSmellySarah In Current Events
I hate parents. Not because "they're ruininng my life" or some other whiny response, but because they have no idea what they're doing. My moms just lets him walk back into our lives and our house like nothing happened. It makes me so mad i can barely think straight. And she tells me to be supportive of him. Yes he has depression and manic depression which isn't a suprise my grandpa has it too. but I do not trust him and i want him out of the majority of my life. I guess i'm cruel and selfish but I don't trust him or forigve him. And now i don't trust my mom for letting him back in or whatever. They don't tell us what's going on. EVER. But yet me and cowbelle have to suffer through it blindly. I don't understand them. They still don't tell each other how they feel so what makes them think this is going to happen again? How could she let him back knowing that he might just waltz out again?

Ah, i never want to get married. I don't want to do this to my husband and/or children.


Comments
on Jan 30, 2005
It's hard to understand....even I can't understand some people and why they do the things they do....Perhaps there's more to it than you can see right now....well, best of luck to you and cowbelle.

~Zoo
on Jan 30, 2005
I might have to agree with Shaun, but then again, maybe there's just something we don't know that makes us think there's probably something you don't know.

About getting married though... are you afraid of it? You don't seem to think that marriage can be a good thing. The problem is that most people take it too lightly. From what I know, your parents seem to be that way. My dad sure made it seem like he did. Don't worry about marriage. As long as you stay yourself any half witted man would realize what he has. I don't even think I comprehend how lucky I am sometimes in being with you. (que the awww's)

Seriously, though Sarah. I don't think you should be so down on this gift that God has given man. When everyone does their part marriage is a very good thing.

Capt. over and out!
on Jan 30, 2005
(que the awww's)


Yes, mein Captain. AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!

You are welcome ,
~Zoo
on Jan 30, 2005
Brandon youre so sweet, I am the lucky one. Maybe everyone takes it too lightly, but it scares me to death. I'm dead serious about marriage, and i don't want to hurt anyone.
on Jan 30, 2005
That's why marriage is such a commitment, such a heavy decision.

Don't worry Sarah. Marriage is a long way away, and you need to grow and mature as a person and just live before you ever have to worry about hurting someone by marrying them. When you find that special someone, you'll know.

That's all I can give you,

Alex
on Jan 31, 2005
i love you sarah ! and i hope everything gets better ! i cant give no advice on marrige becuase im scared of marrige too and im not married ! so we can be scared together
on Jan 31, 2005
Yes he has depression and manic depression


Mental illness is hard to deal with--it gets easier as you get older and have more experience with it, but it's never fun--it's hard work and its trying. But that's what family is all about. I don't know your specific situation, so take everything I say with a grain of salt. But just remember--we only have one family--don't waste it. Yes, you can be angry and sad and hurt, but learning to forgive unconditionally is one of the best gifts you can give yourself. Life happens--the good, the bad, and the ugly and the only thing we can control is the way we respond...so, be kind to yourself and forgive--living with anger and hatred will eat away at you.
on Jan 31, 2005
Thanx so much guys! i love you all so much!