I can be so disfunctional sometimes
Published on March 14, 2005 By NotSoSmellySarah In Misc
I was just thinking about how a month or so ago, Piper and Brandon said i was equivilant to a guy. Yeah. Lovely. But its true. I'm a paradox. I'm a girly girl, I love makeup, shopping, Vagina!!!!!!!!!!!, and girl stuff. But I've always felt more comfortable around guys. I often find myself saying things that are very guy esque, like when brandons watching gilmore girls, and I'm rambling on about a sexual comment shaun made or something. I'm not a tomboy, I don't like sports, or cars, I don't live on a farm and I don't like to get dirty, but yet I've always been considered one of the guys. Its a very bizarre phenomenon, I guess you would have to know me to understand but thats okay. I'm more comfortable with a group of guys than I ever, EVER will be with a group of girls. I don't back bite or backstab and if i do give hell itts to the person giving me a hard time. I won't pretend like i like someone to there face and slam them behind there back. I guess I'm considered boyish because i'm upfront about sexuality, and I don't get embarassed easily about it. I'm not intimidated by someone talking about the male anatomy. Does this make me boyish i wonder? I don't want to change me i just found it curious. Another things is guyfriends are so much easier to trust than female ones.
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on Mar 14, 2005
Brandon watches Gilmore Girls?!?!? That is so awesome!!! I'm a big fan myself, it's good to know of another kind patron of the Girls. *thumbs up*
on Mar 15, 2005
That's really weird that you guys watch that. lol.

I think I'm the one that is disfunctional. I mean sometimes I act really girly, and then other times I act as if I'm a guy. I like to wear makeup.(if you don't notice, I wear it everyday) I don't really love shopping, but I like to get new things if that makes any sense at all. I love to watch romantic movies and my favorite kind of books are love stories. I love to talk on the phone! I think I'd die without it! But I guess those are all of my girl qualities. I play sports, if I get dirty it doesn't bother me, i really don't love cars, it's more like I'm obssesed with Mustangs. I do live on a farm, and I hate having to dress up, even though I do it anyways for the heck of it sometimes. So I guess those are my guy qualities. Unless you want to count my wide sholders as being a guy quality then that's pretty much it.

I don't find it odd one bit to hang out with guys all the time. I definatly have more guy friends than I do girl friends. And it's always been that way. Guys are just so much easier to talk to. You really don't have to worry about them telling something you told them to everyone they know. And it's odd, but most guys understand me better. Except for you Sarah. Out of all my girl friends you understand me the most, just as well as the guys do. Lets just say my little trust circle contains 3 guys and one girl.(I think you could figure them out) Does that make me boyish?

I don't know. I've always been said that I'm a tomboy. But I think I'm growing out of it a bit. I'm definatly not as bad as I used to. Now my mom actually doesn't have to really force me to put on a dress of some sort for church. So I guess that's a plus, maybe. I guess the boyness come from living with two brothers and a dad, and the only other girl in your house is your mom. And the fact of having just about all guy cousins doesn't help either.

Good thread Sarah!

~carebear~
on Mar 15, 2005
You've just completely summed me up. Wait until you get older and your boyfriends have to learn to deal with the fact that the majority of your close friends are men. In my case very attractive, highly successful men. It's a good test of who to keep and who to kick to the curb!

Good on you for being a kick arse birl or goy!
on Mar 15, 2005
So, does that mean Brandon is perhaps a little gay? Just a thought...

You may not be exactly girly or boyish, but that doesn't matter.....you're still a good friend.

Good article,
~Zoo
on Mar 15, 2005
Yeah we should all love each other no matter "what" we are. lol. I love you Sarah! You're a great friend!

~carebear~
on Mar 15, 2005
Shaun~ I took the heterosexual test... I'm about half and half according to the test.

Sarah~ You know where I stand on this... I like it. I think it's pretty cool that you'd actually be more comfortable with guys. I used to be the exact opposite. I'd find myself with about 3 times as many galfriends as i did guyfriends. I've leveled off pretty well now, so you shouldn't have to worry about being uncomfortable around most of my friends.

Wow! I'm tired, so if i just said anything totally stupid please ignore it. I can barely keep a straight thought in my head right now.

Capt. over and out!