Just ignore me, maybe I won't exist. Youve seen the scars, you've read the poems about her, you've seen my lying on the floor crying out for someone for anyone to hold me. Just turn your back to me. Pretend that my pain isn't real, even though you taught it to me. I try so hard so that you can't see the pain, because I know it isn't real to you anyway. Lie to me, appease me for a moment, pretend to care. Then shatter the glass. Tell me how I'll grow up to be trash. I won't amount to anything. I'm ugly, tell me again. Tell me again how my clothes fit, tell me how my hair is, tell me how flat chested I am.Tell me to get over it, tell me to stop acting so gd depressed. Laugh in my face.Scar me some more. Tell the little girl I used to be that I am stupid. That I'm the selfish one. Punch the wall again, scream a little louder, break the glass, throw anything that is of value to me.
You talk about me to others, to my sister like the kids at school used to. Tell her what a failure I am. Tell her that your glad she didn't turn out to be a slut like I did. Tell her she's going somewhere, but Sarah, she won't amount to anything. But make sure you lie to my face. Smile at me sometimes. Pretend that you give care and support. You didn't even name me. You have no meaning to me. You've only hurt me. Walk out again. I'm begging you.
And then there is persons not in my family.
Would you love me if I wasn't his girlfriend, would you have talked to me, would you even acknowledge my existance if he hadn't? Would you have stopped trashing me if he hadn't? Would you have tried to understand? I liked to think that you would, but I know the truth: without Brandon, I would have a single friend of the friends I claim today.
I can't fix everyones lives. I can't always be happy I'm sorry. I shouldn't have to apologize.
If I have offended anyone, plesae feel free to go screw yourself, because I'm tired of pretending.
Theese are the words I've left unsaid. But now they are said.
There will be no comments on this one, I don't want to hear bs and other assorted lies. Have a nice day.