I've seen this scene before.(its not the same, but yet so familiar). The pill I had to swallow was so bitter, betrayal is so hard to keep down. Boxes and bags awaken theese feelings. Front lawns and love songs make me scream. "...cuz I'm leaving on a jet plane, I don't know when i'll get back again..." playing in the soundtrack of this memory. I felt this pain before, I've heard those words before ( I try to know you mean them), I've definately seen this scene before, before. Promises are the easiest things to make, but promises are so easy to break. They say if you something let it go, but what the hell do they know? So different, so familiar, so unique, so similar. Changes are breaking me down, and Changes, please don't let me down, don't let me down. Don't let me push you away, is there anyway that things could stay...just like this?
...."when you get back I'll wear your wedding ring.
So kiss me and smile for me. Tell me that you'll wait for me. Hold me like you'll never let me go. Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane. I don't know when i'll get back again. Oh babe, i hate to go."
This is the song in the soundtrack of my mind. It's playing through this time. Stubborn; I refuse to change. I don't want this to be hard. I love him, if I lose him, I can't understand, who i really am. No one can see, dont try to empathize with me. I can not not know what going on, I cant theese things rot at my mind.
As a side note, I would like to say that I used lyrics from the song "Leaving On A Jet Plane" I don't know who sings it, but its on the aramagedon soundtrack. So don't give me crap about it. Secondly, this is not a poem techincally, so screw you Herr Piper!