I was just thinking the other day. Now that Brandon's not around much anymore...soon he won't be for a long time...I have no clue who I am. There hasn't been just Sarah in a long time...nearly a year. I don't know how to handle it. I don't even know who I was before, and how to just be myself by myself. My idenity has been Brandon's identity. I don't know if anyone knows who I really am, I don't even know if I know who I really am. I think I lost myself awhile ago. Now I just feel numb and lost. I realized also that the Freshman (meaning in band) don't know me as Sarandon but only as Sarah. And quite frankly it scares me. I know that no one really liked the actual Sarah before except for Brandon...I tend to scare lots of people away.