Sometimes I miss it here, I miss writing something and getting a response, although it was usually negative, at least i had something. Now I don't have a whole lot. I feel empty, I look back and go "where did my life get so fucked up?" and I remain clueless. Maybe that bad kharma Alex and Brandon always told me I had has finally caught up with me.
I miss having Brandon around so much that its become pretty normal. Its the others that flash in my mind and break my heart again. I miss Alex, there are days when I need him so much and I know theres no way he could help me. Many days I find myself missing Kyle and his crazy friends who always were so much fun. The other day I even missed Dairic, who although his obsession for a while was a little scary, always encouraged me to be myself.
Sometimes I miss the old life I had, and others I'm really happy with this one. Round Town Players has opened up a whole new world of friends for me. Right now i'm on a break and its really hard because i don't have rehersals to go to. They love me, and its like having a family, that loves me and cares for whats in my best interest, not to mention its full of eccentric old people who always are a good time.
Sometimes I miss playing with barbie and listening to hanson. I miss being a little girl, before I became such a bitch. Not that i really mind being a bitch, because as shaun says it i am the "lovable bitch".
Most days I miss the things I never had, maybe never will have.