Arms out rooftops Hairspray running in my mouth Lightning strikes but we don't care Spinning on a rooftop Naked and frozen I feel in love again And I paint pictures of you On my eyelids When I can't see you You always seem to take me Where i've never been but wanted to go wordlessly you know and i know we fight with the power of our unspeakable chemistry all our past lives wait outside our door so i can pull you inside me again feeling yo...

today is the day i'll slip into my own skin start living as myself through myself stop letting you influence my every move i awaken to new found dreams and start resting on my own wealth i'll relearn how to take my steps focus on my lost pride pick myself up of this solid ground stop trying to be your somebody  

dont loose yourself sarah keep putting it together let go sarah losen your steel grip tell yourself how fascinating you are you'll keep them coming you always have over the top today flying so high over circus clouds and tents today sew some pieces sarah youre living on a diet of chai and cigarettes mmhmm my favorite and pills lots of pills windows down music out into the air tell me a story a singsong story about heartbreak i want to hear ...

And the world keeps Crashing down on me I'll take a chance And you'll break my spirit I can't keep up With my own visicous cycle Post office man Ship me away from myself To the one who can't hurt me I know the shipping is high Over the ocean Put me up  ship me off to The one who took a chance 20 days two years ago I'll let the ashes of the memories of all those who weren't so brave out in the sea I still believe in you and me.

Barefeet, Concrete I'd follow in your steps There is something absolutely magical about this girl Wide smile and dark eyes is where I go Mass of mossy brown hair Curtains me in You are all i can see Maybe I'll melt into this most beautiful unveiling my short lifetime, my little worn heart Has taken.

The smell of your skin Is still in my sheets So when I duck under covers I am forced to face Your feeble pleasebabychildplease promise Luckily Teddy and I Doused on cologne To soak you up Wash out your half assed few and far between days We can't seem to get out the stain That sweet memory left Fuck you and your pretty promise That I bought into Take your damn John Mayer Your false ideaologies Your beautiful face Pleas...

Someday I'll wake into myself Take down your face From my mirror And cry some happy tears For once I'll dance stark And naked in the rain Bow down to some goddess hearts I know in truth Tell vagina tales of my demise Make Ms. Ensler proud Hold my arms open to beautiful Broken Ruthless Women Whose tales must be told I'll hold down a fort For some godbabies and long crafted friendships Maybe a bulldog named Louise Build bridges made from strength and burn some made f...

Heres what I know about me I'm lost in between words and worlds apart from where I need to be And I'm a silly hearted girl And no one gives a damn A flat fuck Or ass of any kind What I say People listen when other peoples words float out of my mouth and to their ears When I'm on a stage but everywhere else they put gags in my mouth You'll create your own version of me And with the help of blinders Thats all you'll see You'll think I'm fascinating That I complete your ever...

The studio is safe The place where we Release everything Find everything Yell Scream Kick Cry Laugh Out Loud And no one is hurt React the way we want to In the infamous real world Theres a soft buzzing in my ear Your voice is flat, and I hear Nothing Youre yelling youre condescending You treat me like a child Nothing I repeat and repeat In this haze Suddenly a spark Impulse in my nervous stomache Guttural noise from my throat Its gone Lost in the struggle Floundering ...

Your scent Sickeningly sweet passing through my nostrils Setting on my uneasy stomache It clings to my hands, and when I touch my face Or lie them on my pillow You are in my midst Like you have been so many times before I have to wash it from my hair It clings to my fabric In my every pore Even the smell of my own bed sheets Of my room Of my Burberry perfume Takes me to that time I'll push you aside I'll seek you out I'll try my hardest And I'll fail. I'll find myself ag...

The number four isn't so bad I tell myself Just one hand The fingers of just one hand. Index, Pointing in stern disbelief Or Obliging you to come hither Middle Expressing my anger, my more than slight vulgarity Eager defiant feminism even on my back. The ring Its bareness, it seems to be saying I broke the rules Of someone elses game. Pinky. Small, pink flesh childlike, my impatience I have room: the thumb the sturdy stablity When fingers trace over the ke...

I never have the right words to say, but when your small lips are entwined with mine, I find that its okay I'm shy and I'm restless And i wish i could express anything to anyone Something to impress Your gentle mind Somewhere I know that this is sort of love for you from you I'm not sure I want to I wish I could bare my soul barefoot on coffee house stage And make you believe that to leave her would mean everything Be perfectly imperfect to make you thing about me in the morning. ...

Its so nice to be away from everyone and everything no one knows me here...I have been having a great time with Natalie and my roomate. My classes started today, and my first is my stagecraft class which will eventually involve power tools. Acting is all I'm actually good for, I've never done crew stuff before. Not because I'm a diva, I just can't..I'm not creative like that..give me lines. I have auditions for Rocky Horror Show in a couple of days for the student run theater called The Lost ...

Today is a little brighter You say youve been ballistic Thinking about me I blush pretty deeply Wishing things were different but today i'm okay...