Okay, so i've been a little angry all day about a somewhat touchy subject, so i decided to write about it. but before i start i would like to say that I DO NOT THINK I AM FAT> if i so much as get one reply about "oh sarah, youre not fat, now i'm fat....blah blah blah" there shall be hell to pay!!!!!! Now that's said, i need to state my opinion on this matter. Most of you don't know me very well, sarandon obviously knowing me the best, but I will firstly admit that i do indeed have a problem w...

Well, I haven't been on a lot lately because of auditions which are/were making me crazy!!!! but after an interesting weekend, speaking of interesting.... *lol*cough*in bed* cough. ANYWAY, i spent the entire day with the other half of the collective unit now known not just as sarah hyphen brandon, but sarandon. I went to my very first Baptist church service which is better than the Presbyterian, i must say. I think that the next time brandon should go to one of my church services although br...

Okie just got back from seeing the grudge with Bruno, and alicia. I have a battle wound from racing to purchase the ticket unforunately after the brutal attack i lost, got paid for, and my wrist hurt pretty bad. ( i still love you brandon) It was creepy, we jumped like every five seconds, but we still managed to laugh and probably drive the people in front of us insane, but oh well. I've been so busy lately, it's crazy. The last remaining members of the band formerly know as Viva La Box Top w...

Okay i have nothing really interesting going on. I'm a rebel (muahahahahahaha) and don't have a church to go to so i decided to write an article. Today was interesting, after some keen persuasion from Mr. Justice, the Capt. rescued my book from the ever evil, ever scarey Mr. Roderick. I am petrified of him. I had to perform a scene from Antigone this morning in drama, in which, i got carried away and proceeded to kill my vocal chords. I don't realize how loudly i project anymore. AUDITIONS AR...

Okay i was listening to the new relient k and decided to write an article on the uprising of emo. Everyone's emo now. I mean even the stupid pop punk bands like g.c. and simple plan are even emo now. First Blink turned emo, which i knew would happen after adam's song on one of there older cds. Then Sum 41 followed suit, but they have there own version of emo which is almost screamo but not quite. It's like angry punk emo. Then all the pop punk kids were all like yeah emo is the way to be. Stu...

So undeserving of this moment, So unexpecting it would come, Never knowing this would happen. That Some new, precious gift, Would be Given for unknown reasons, To someone so insignificant as i, Suddenly the world isn't as dark and dreary, As i had lived for so long, Euphoria taps me on the shoulder, and Plays a reverie, Of a beating heart, That's bleeding love for me.

Okay the stupid skool computer will not let me comment so i have to write an article. In regards to what trina said about me, yes indeed i do have brandon, i love him and i'm very happy, however,i see that sam and alex are hurting and that upsets me. I'm not putting myself in it, i just want to let them know i'm here. There are two really good friends of mine and i want to help. I felt like stacey, just wasn't getting it and it bugged me. Sorry that i yelled at you stace, i just felt it ...

I just wondered. I mean I yell and everyone jumps down my throat. Anyone elses yells it's like it okay... But only if brandon says so. I mean you'd think he was God or something. Its like his opionon is the mass majority's opinon. I mean i'm his girlfriend and even i don't agree with him half as much as everyone else on this sight. I love him, and i know you guys probably don't do it on purpose. But please. He's a great guys with some great opinions and i may be sarandon but at least i ca...

Well, after Sam's little blog I started to think. As you all know, Brandon in particular, I'm addicted to carbs. Breads, pastas, soda anything and everything with a lot of carbohydrates. I'm serious the adkins diet would seriously send me into a coma. But anyway, everyone obsesses about my weight. Though countlessly I've told people I am fine. No one believes me. My mother in particular was convinced that I had an eating disorder for a really long time. I try to tell her, no mother i am fine,...

Finding my morality, A nasty suprise, For I had wasted my life in wishes, Some for myself, But mainly for others, Her infinite pain, I needed to cease, But i just could not, No matter how hard i tried, I saw through her fake smiles, And all i could do was hold her, So many wishes and prayers for him, I saw his great sorrow, Mourning for the loss of a related stranger, I wanted to make it all go away, But all I could say, Was that i would listen, So you see My pain is not re...

I hate my anger problem And I hate that Alex is the one i USUALLY explode to even though he just asks a simple question I hate that i love and despise people at the same time I hate that i'm a brat and i'm stubborn I hate that I forgive everything even those things that shouldn't be forgiven I hate that I can't trust anyone I hate that I can't stand on my own, I hate that i can't control my parents actions I hate that i can't go back and change my past I hate that i can't think "stra...

I'm mad mainly at myself, but I decided to take it out on a bunch of people. Forgive me, I wrote you a letter Ash, about what i ment. I'm just so angry and i was upset because sam was upset. I don't have a reason to be mean, looking back i don't knkow what you were trying to do, but i lashed out at you. I guess I should tackle the problem but more calmly. I'm having insane mood swings by the way, I talked to alex about my anger problem and i'm trying to tackle it. Please pray. I think i've lo...

All i can say is, that if you don't shut up, i'm going to get angry and it is not going to be pretty. Okay, i tried to be nice and make the friendship thing work, but you know what, i don't care right about now. I'm sorry that the world doesn't revolve around you, and if you don't stop what youre doing then i'm going to have to scream, but being a god fearing women i can't scream the obscenities that are running through my mind. Can you just let the drama go please? Its hard enough on one of ...

So basically this is how it goes, I don't think I can ever leave my house again. I have to stay home because my mom wants me too. She wants me to talk about my feelings and of course she can not know my feeling because it would hurt her and the derranged stranger formerly known as my father. To be perfectly honest, if i don't like get out for a decent amount of time i think i'm going to go psycho on someone. So if any of you ever get the urge to kidnapp me feel free to. I was going to have Ki...

First of all i would like to say that i dont want no one to feel sorry for me. I don't need your pity, i have friends that are going through a lot worse right now and i want to be there for them first and foremost. So this isn't about me feeling sorry for myself: I just need to express my feeling about what i'm going through right now. Okay yesterday after Alice practice, i come home to find my mom crying in the doorway, which scared the crap out of me. My mom never cries, well hardly ever ...