I hate parents. Not because "they're ruininng my life" or some other whiny response, but because they have no idea what they're doing. My moms just lets him walk back into our lives and our house like nothing happened. It makes me so mad i can barely think straight. And she tells me to be supportive of him. Yes he has depression and manic depression which isn't a suprise my grandpa has it too. but I do not trust him and i want him out of the majority of my life. I guess i'm cruel and selfish ...

"To be a great philospher is not merely to have subtle thoughts...but to love wisdom as to live according to as it dictates, a life of simplicity, independance, magnamity and trust" Anyone guess who said that? Yep, my main man Henry David. As if Walden wasn't an awesome book, theres The Gospel According to Larry, this is an amazing book. i read it a little while ago, and am reading it again. If ever i would cheat on brandon with a book, it would be this book. I love it. Its based of a lot...

Okay so at the bball game me and shaun had a conversation about sex. This one was significant however. I just read sams article on sex and I was thinking. I want to know other opinions, i'm not some sex crazed maniac who is just looking to get laid, I seriously just want some answers. Why are we supposed to wait til marriage? Okay, i understand sex is sacred and beautiful and ment to be cherished. But if I'm in love with someone (once again i know it requires maturity, and a lot of other ...

Okay so i've always thought that valentines day was kind of stupid and a product of zealous commercialism. But i'm also a hopeless romantic. I want to do something really special for Brandon to show him how much i care, but I'm running low on ideas. Of course i will find the perfect answer and it'll be amazing. But right now i'm not too sure. Shaun suggested that i get in a big cake made out of cheese wearing something skimpy with a hat made out of nachos and hold sparklers..and i'm sure he'd...

You know the saying " The best thing since sliced cheese came in personal packages." Well it's not what it's cracked up to be. I mean come on when you take the cheese out of the package that littlecorner of cheese goes missing. Urgh. That's like my biggest pet peeve. So, I plan to revise this saying and turn it into. "The best thing since sliced cheese came in personal packages that didn't tear that itsy bitsy corner off. Cheese is like the main thing on a sandwich and it gets thrown off bala...

You know the saying " The best thing since sliced cheese came in personal packages." Well it's not what it's cracked up to be. I mean come on when you take the cheese out of the package that littlecorner of cheese goes missing. Urgh. That's like my biggest pet peeve. So, I plan to revise this saying and turn it into. "The best thing since sliced cheese came in personal packages that didn't tear that itsy bitsy corner off. Cheese is like the main thing on a sandwich and it gets thrown off bala...

I dream of center stage with bright lights and working sound equipment. I dream of someone seeing my talent. I dream of peace. I dream of happiness in all my friend's lives. I dream of settling down someday with the man of my dreams which is at this present time, Brandon. I dream of knowing my own idenity. I dream of no steroetypes. I dream of days where i don't have to part with the one i love so much. I dream of not feeling ashamed. I dream of loving myself as much as Brandon doe...

I was talking to a friend today about the saying coming out of the closet. What is the closet? Who started this saying, I wonder. Its a really odd saying. Me and said friend were in the bookstore, and i saw this saying that said "Gay guys stay in the closet because there interested about fashion" it made me chuckle but it was kind of steroetypical. But what if its a linen closet? And why a closet, why not a pantry? Sorry i'm being stupid, back to my orginal point. People usually are highly as...

Okay the stupid skool computer will not let me comment so i have to write an article. In regards to what trina said about me, yes indeed i do have brandon, i love him and i'm very happy, however,i see that sam and alex are hurting and that upsets me. I'm not putting myself in it, i just want to let them know i'm here. There are two really good friends of mine and i want to help. I felt like stacey, just wasn't getting it and it bugged me. Sorry that i yelled at you stace, i just felt it ...

I just wondered. I mean I yell and everyone jumps down my throat. Anyone elses yells it's like it okay... But only if brandon says so. I mean you'd think he was God or something. Its like his opionon is the mass majority's opinon. I mean i'm his girlfriend and even i don't agree with him half as much as everyone else on this sight. I love him, and i know you guys probably don't do it on purpose. But please. He's a great guys with some great opinions and i may be sarandon but at least i ca...

Well, after Sam's little blog I started to think. As you all know, Brandon in particular, I'm addicted to carbs. Breads, pastas, soda anything and everything with a lot of carbohydrates. I'm serious the adkins diet would seriously send me into a coma. But anyway, everyone obsesses about my weight. Though countlessly I've told people I am fine. No one believes me. My mother in particular was convinced that I had an eating disorder for a really long time. I try to tell her, no mother i am fine,...

Finding my morality, A nasty suprise, For I had wasted my life in wishes, Some for myself, But mainly for others, Her infinite pain, I needed to cease, But i just could not, No matter how hard i tried, I saw through her fake smiles, And all i could do was hold her, So many wishes and prayers for him, I saw his great sorrow, Mourning for the loss of a related stranger, I wanted to make it all go away, But all I could say, Was that i would listen, So you see My pain is not re...

I hate my anger problem And I hate that Alex is the one i USUALLY explode to even though he just asks a simple question I hate that i love and despise people at the same time I hate that i'm a brat and i'm stubborn I hate that I forgive everything even those things that shouldn't be forgiven I hate that I can't trust anyone I hate that I can't stand on my own, I hate that i can't control my parents actions I hate that i can't go back and change my past I hate that i can't think "stra...

I'm mad mainly at myself, but I decided to take it out on a bunch of people. Forgive me, I wrote you a letter Ash, about what i ment. I'm just so angry and i was upset because sam was upset. I don't have a reason to be mean, looking back i don't knkow what you were trying to do, but i lashed out at you. I guess I should tackle the problem but more calmly. I'm having insane mood swings by the way, I talked to alex about my anger problem and i'm trying to tackle it. Please pray. I think i've lo...

All i can say is, that if you don't shut up, i'm going to get angry and it is not going to be pretty. Okay, i tried to be nice and make the friendship thing work, but you know what, i don't care right about now. I'm sorry that the world doesn't revolve around you, and if you don't stop what youre doing then i'm going to have to scream, but being a god fearing women i can't scream the obscenities that are running through my mind. Can you just let the drama go please? Its hard enough on one of ...